Never Meant to be Mine

I know what I should be doing

And that makes it even worse that I’m not.

Everyone around me wants to help

But I’m the one who has to put in the work.

It’s easier said than done

Feels like a battle that can’t be won.

The frustration wears me down every time

Not even sure if the view will be worth the climb.

I feel like peace and happiness are never meant to be mine.
-August 2018