Always told you can never do anything right
so you smoke until everything feels light.
You self sabotage with pills and alcohol
afraid you’ll prove him right and fall.
Forgetting everything else in that brilliant mind
because his hatred has made you go blind.
You self medicate with pills and alcohol
numbing the pain so you can finally sleep instead of bawl.
scared if you see your dad, you’ll lose control and brawl.