I don’t want nor need you to fix me
I only wish for your love to inspire me to see my own light
Then I can finally stop stitching my wounds up blindly
No longer feeling around in the darkness
Poking myself endlessly with the needle thread.
Once sew up, I will apply bandages as to not pick at healing scabs
You only need to apply soothing love and support.
I will save myself.
You were inside my mind today
Or maybe it was just written all over my face
Or maybe you were just feeling the same way
But you knew exactly when I wanted to kiss you every time today.
Chest to chest, cheek to cheek
I see that spark in your eye
that let’s me know you’re up to no good.
The corner of your lips hold a secret
that I want to coax out with the tip of my tongue.
Your fingers trace up my spine.
You taste so good I can’t help but sink
my teeth into you.
I look at the waves crashing
the shore and picture my hips rolling into yours.
When were together time gets measured in kisses
and there’s never enough of either.
Kiss me overlooking the bay
Kiss me in the rain
Kiss my hand
Open my car door
Whisper I missed you into my hair
Hold me tight
Ask about my family
Listen closely to my fears and insecurities
Spark passion into my future
Tenderly handle every piece of myself I hand to you
I say I miss you
but it’s not exactly what I mean.
Yes I do miss the way the corner of your lips smile
and those ridiculous jokes you love telling
But I’ve begun to use those words as a placeholder.
I mean more than I miss you while you’re gone
My heart aches for you even while you stand right before me.
‘I love you’ is on the tip of my tongue
but fear holds a hand over my mouth
and I settle for ‘I miss you’ yet another time.
It’s hard to stay focused when there’s just one sentence
playing on loop in my mind.
I want to say it when the moment is just right
not in response to you or just another goodnight.
I don’t know why I keep choking it down
when you already told me what you would say.
We’re sitting on a bench watching the beautiful sun set
over the water and all I can think is
I love you
We kiss, we laugh
I dive deep into your soul
you lay your head on my chest
and crack me open so I ache for you.
You feel so familiar like our souls have met before.
Perhaps even fell in love like we’re doing now
with gentle hands, shared breathe, and vulnerable whispers.