dating

Second Chances

I wrote about how the cliche for my relationship is ‘timing is everything’ I figured today I’ll explain that a little bit more. I first started talking to my boyfriend on a dating app about a year ago. We probably only talked 3-4 weeks and we never ended up meeting. That wasn’t without lack of trying of course, I was open to meeting up and so was he.

But timing wasn’t right and we were looking for different things so 8 months passed before The Boyfriend randomly contacted me. Now that we were in different points of our lives, I told him why I thought we never met up all that time ago. We made up for lost time and met up just a few days after reconnecting.

He was wearing glasses and dirt on the shoulder of his black shirt from a work event he just came from. I was surprised by the instant attraction I had to him and also a bit surprised to hear myself an hour later saying yes to going down to the docks after we ate.   An hour date turned into five hours and I was thankful for second chances.

I’m still surprised sometimes at how easy parts of the relationship are. My trust issues have always kept guys at a bit of a distance and yet in just a couple of weeks he claimed title as My First Boyfriend. My boyfriend plans dates/adventures/trips , puts in the effort to be romantic, and is transparent in his feelings for me. Of course, it isn’t all easy as I’ve mentioned before but any issue that pops up is an issue I want to face with him.

I’m not sure why a year ago things didn’t work out or if we had met up then maybe things would have? But maybe life was too crazy then and things needed to work themselves out. So we took our time meeting and here we are together at last.

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Romance (A list of things you’ve done)

Kiss me overlooking the bay

Kiss me in the rain

Kiss my hand

My forehead

Open my car door

Whisper I missed you into my hair

Hold me tight

Ask about my family

Listen closely to my fears and insecurities

Spark passion into my future

Tenderly handle every piece of myself I hand to you

Love me

-Aug 2017

When I Say I Miss You…

I say I miss you

but it’s not exactly what I mean.

Yes I do miss the way the corner of your lips smile

and those ridiculous jokes you love telling

But I’ve begun to use those words as a placeholder.

I mean more than I miss you while you’re gone

My heart aches for you even while you stand right before me.

‘I love you’ is on the tip of my tongue

but fear holds a hand over my mouth

and I settle for ‘I miss you’ yet another time.

-Sept 2017

If you’ve never been on a dating site…

Q&A of all things people who have never been on a dating app might ask! Thanks so much to all those who participated and for reading!!!!

How long do you talk before meeting up?

Of course, all answers will vary here depending on the type of person you ask and the type of relationship they are seeking via these apps. I, personally, never liked to meet the same week that I started talking to someone so the sweet spot for me was around 10 days. This way I could find out what they did during the week (such as school or work) and also what type of weekender they were (from homebody to passed out at the bars). If conversation was flowing and we had similar interests then I would feel more confident that I wasn’t wasting my Saturday evening. Those seeking a more casual relationship would most likely meet up within a few days.

How did you start?   Bexoxo

Wow this is a throwback to November 2013! I transferred colleges (aka didn’t have many friends at the time), was a hopeless romantic, and was looking to fill up some of my free time so I found myself creating an OKCupid account. I was open to meeting people and did date someone for a few weeks right away but plenty of people start out just browsing and chatting until they get comfortable enough with the idea to meet people and actually start dating. Don’t rush yourself, delete and redownload those apps as often as you need.

Do you prefer apps or websites?

I prefer websites because they’re easier to browse by offering different search options. On apps you can only swipe, it’s usually based on location (which like how often does the guy of your dreams live across the street from you? And if he does, why did you need an app to find him?), and app profiles usually have less information on them. I’m going to do a dating app review post eventually but my favorite has always been OKCupid.

Have you ever tried speed dating?

Surprisingly, I have not. It’s funny because people who usually don’t like dating apps will say how meeting by chance in real life is much better. If you’re single and looking to date then speed dating is actually a great idea because you’ll find a decent amount of people who are open to relationships all at the same place. Ironically, I’d imagine speed dating to possibly be more awkward/embarrassing than online dating. But hey, different things work for different people.

What is your go to excuse to run out on a date that’s not going well?

Does anyone actually know someone in real life who had a friend fake an emergency phone call to get out of a horrible date? I’ve only heard of such dramatics in the movies but I do know a true story of a guy who said he was going to the bathroom mid date and then JUST LEFT ! The last excuse I used was saying I had a phone interview and had to get back home for that. (Guess which guy from this post I ended up using that excuse on lol.) Oh and if you want to hear of the craziest excuse a guy used to dump me then you can head over in this direction.

How do you keep your sanity while online dating and not get overly excited when there’s a small connection?   janieleeds

You definitely have to delete the apps and accounts from time to time to keep your sanity. It helps you decompress from all the dating nerves/stress, makes you feel in control of your happiness again, and lifts your spirits out of the hopeless dating pool slump. Also, make sure to have a clear idea of what type of relationship you’re looking for and don’t waste your time on profiles you know aren’t a good match for you.

A weird thing that has happened to me a couple of times is the first date going well and then the second date just being terrible. So I think expectations really make or break a date and it’s definitely tough to get excited for dates only for them to let you down. Most app users keep their excitement in check by talking to multiple people to avoid putting their eggs all in one basket. That’s not a fool proof plan though so other ideas are welcomed.

What’s a misconception about dating apps?

People often think that dating apps suck and you’ll never find an actual relationship on there. And honestly, that’s only really true if you make it true. I do think dating apps attract people who subconsciously self sabotage themselves. You can totally say you’re looking for love but then somehow find something wrong with every guy you meet. You’re digging for excuses because for whatever reason (not over your ex, been lied to and hurt in the past) you’re not really ready to open your heart up again. There are plenty of people that were only on dating apps for a limited time before finding a good match. They knew what they wanted and they didn’t waste their time settling for anything else. There is also a large portion of today’s relationships that started on a dating sites so it really is what you make of your experience.

You Asked If I’d Ever Live in a Lighthouse

I worry that my eagerness might scare you away

that I’ll jinx us by believing in a future so blindly

or play the fool once again, falling alone

ignoring any rough waters saying I should have known

better by now, but I’m willing to make a deal.

I’ll be a fool for you if you’ll be the same for me

Trust in me, and us, to expose every depth of you.

Swim in me and my waves of acceptance will gently carry you.

I will let your light explore every darkness I fear lurks within me.

I’ll be home to you and you’ll be home to me.

-Sept 2017

Modern Online Dating Etiquette

Times have definitely changed when it comes to dating and it’s time these dating rules get an update. No more waiting three days to call nor footing every bill to the male. We’re strong, independent women who no longer need a man…still we want him.

In a previous post, I briefly mentioned this guy who would talk about his other dates on our dates. That’s rule number 1, when using dating apps we all know you’re in different stages of talking and dating multiple people. You’re doing it, I’m doing it, he’s doing it, the trick is to not be the jerk who talks about it. You don’t impress me by telling me about the obsessive girl texting you during our date and I definitely don’t care about the girl you saw last night when I was busy. Instead, I’ll think you’re more interested in those girls or maybe just a guy who’s so starved for attention he needs it from multiple girls.

But with everyone going on multiple dates, you need to make an impression and establish a connection quicker. In the past you might keep the conversation light so you don’t rock the boat too early, but now we tend to dive into important topics within the first couple of dates. There are so many profiles and options with online dating, you need to know if this person is a good match for you ASAP so you don’t waste your time and miss out on a better fish.

Before the age of texting, suitors used to wait three days to call, I guess in order to not seem too desperate? Now you can text the same night the date ends or the next day, saying how you enjoyed yourself, thanking them for a fun evening, and hoping to see them again. It’s no longer seen as desperate, in fact if you wait longer than the next day they’re more likely to think you’re not interested and probably move on.

I wrote about when the right time for a first kiss is but with the way modern dating is going now, people are doing a lot more than just kissing on the first date. Some people are just looking for something casual and there are plenty of long-term couples that say they started out just hooking up so there’s really no rule now on how soon is too soon. As long as you’re both being honest about what you’re looking for, then go all the way on the first day and have fun!

The etiquette of a man always paying for dates started long ago when it made much more sense in society. Society has been changing though with more women in the workforce and the wage gap closing in. The bill doesn’t always have to fall on the man now, plenty of couples go dutch or figure out other ways to share equal weight of the finances.

Let me know of some more modern dating rules you follow in the comments!

 

The Dating Curse -Part Two

Months ago I wrote about my dating curse with having relationships end as soon as I deleted my dating apps. I combatted this curse while dating my boyfriend by just deleting the apps after our second date. This way, I couldn’t blame the apps if things didn’t work out.

The second curse I forgot to mention is my 7 week curse. I think all of my dating relationships have a 7 week lifespan. This curse was kind of broken by Mr Romantic but his work schedule would cause him to be away for several weeks at a time and that could have confused the curse, plus we never reached Boyfriend/Girlfriend label.

When I first started dating my current boyfriend and telling my friends about him, I also happened to tell a friend about this curse and how I worried things could be going too well. She laughed at how I was able to make up such a curse and it was finally at that moment I realized

OMG I’M LITERALLY CREATING A PROBLEM OUT OF THIN AIR!!

I didn’t have a dating curse, I have intimacy issues. And in a desperate attempt to save myself from not having to be vulnerable, I made up this curse.

(SPOILER ALERT: I made up the first dating ‘curse’ too)

In my current relationship, we very quickly graduated from casually dating to official Boyfriend/Girlfriend status. This would normally have my intimacy issues in full-blown panic mode, “it’s all moving too fast” “is he positive he actually likes me” “how embarrassing will it be if we ‘break up’ in a month”. I’m a bit of a runner when it comes to relationships so the fact that I wasn’t feeling any of those alarm bells had me thinking that I had beat my intimacy issues!

And then my thoughts started circling this 7 week curse and I realized, No I still have intimacy issues, they’re just wearing a different costume this time. They won’t win this time though because with knowledge comes power. Now that I’m aware of how my intimacy issues are acting this time, I can make a conscious effort to fight them and be the healthier version of me that gets to keep this great guy.

Of course, this is a war against my issues and insecurities, I won’t win every battle so make sure to read next week’s article on how I nearly sabotage my relationship.