heartache

Cold Weather

I know we fight

I know we don’t always get it right

I’m sorry I didn’t pick up your calls

It’s just that my mind was going crazy inside these walls

I’ve never had someone mean so much to me

Being this vulnerable can make me a little uneasy

Even if I cry, just know I always want to try

Even in cold weather, I’ll always want to stay together

-Jan 2018

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My Sun

I can’t help but gravitate to her

So sweet, she has me on a sugar high

So beautiful, surely I’ll go blind.

I’d do anything for that girl.

 

I never thought I’d find someone so perfect for me

She’s the North Star I’ll follow through even the roughest storm

the Religion I’d kneel before and pray to everyday

One day she’s gonna break my heart.

And I’ll gladly give it to her again in pieces

 

Nothing could keep me from her

because Heaven is Hell without her

She’s the center of my Universe

There is no Me without Her.

 

-June 2017

 

My First Scar

Maybe I’m so angry at you

because you remind me of him.

And I’m mad at myself for being the fool yet again

for not valuing myself like I deserve.

But it’s easier to blame you than to face myself

I can just leave you instead of fixing me

I was so innocent and open

when his dismissal slashed through me.

Poke the scar just right with your condescending tone

and it still pulses like it’s alive.

-June 2017

Time With You (A Pantoum)

I’m just asking for a little more time

just a few more days with you in my mind

It’s hard to let you go

here I go again acting like you were ever mine.

just a few more days with you in my mind

I lie to myself, something I learned from you

here I go again acting like you were ever mine

all you ever did was tangle my thoughts like you did my sheets

I lie to myself, something I learned from you

rather than face the truth you hide in the dark

all you ever did was tangle my thoughts like you did my sheets

yet you continue to haunt me and crave my attention

rather than face the truth you hide in the dark

and that makes it easier to let you go

yet you continue to haunt me and crave my attention

But you’ve taken too much of my time already.

-March 2017

Tequila on the Line

well it’s been a rough week

and I’m rather thirsty tonight

so I’m gunna call up my girls

and we’ll tear up the night

I didn’t call to say I missed you

I didn’t call to say I love you

I don’t want you back

I don’t want your body lying next to mine

no I didn’t call you up

It was tequila on the line

But what I do have to say to you is

I hope you’re hurting like hell

With the town gossip saying ‘he isn’t doing so well’

I hope you’re ready to come back begging on your knees

Because you can’t stand another sleepless night with me in your life

And I hope tequila calls me up tonight sayin

I called to say I missed you

I called to say I love you

I want you back

I want your body lying next to mine

It’s me on the line

-March 2014