heartache

Your House

I used to pass by your house

praying that you weren’t home

but hoping for a little piece of you.

It’s been months and I had forgotten all about that route

I know we wouldn’t have worked out anyway

and nothing’s changed now

but I just want to see that front door one more time

-April 2017

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My First Scar

Maybe I’m so angry at you

because you remind me of him.

And I’m mad at myself for being the fool yet again

for not valuing myself like I deserve.

But it’s easier to blame you than to face myself

I can just leave you instead of fixing me

I was so innocent and open

when his dismissal slashed through me.

Poke the scar just right with your condescending tone

and it still pulses like it’s alive.

-June 2017

Time With You (A Pantoum)

I’m just asking for a little more time

just a few more days with you in my mind

It’s hard to let you go

here I go again acting like you were ever mine.

just a few more days with you in my mind

I lie to myself, something I learned from you

here I go again acting like you were ever mine

all you ever did was tangle my thoughts like you did my sheets

I lie to myself, something I learned from you

rather than face the truth you hide in the dark

all you ever did was tangle my thoughts like you did my sheets

yet you continue to haunt me and crave my attention

rather than face the truth you hide in the dark

and that makes it easier to let you go

yet you continue to haunt me and crave my attention

But you’ve taken too much of my time already.

-March 2017

Tequila on the Line

well it’s been a rough week

and I’m rather thirsty tonight

so I’m gunna call up my girls

and we’ll tear up the night

I didn’t call to say I missed you

I didn’t call to say I love you

I don’t want you back

I don’t want your body lying next to mine

no I didn’t call you up

It was tequila on the line

But what I do have to say to you is

I hope you’re hurting like hell

With the town gossip saying ‘he isn’t doing so well’

I hope you’re ready to come back begging on your knees

Because you can’t stand another sleepless night with me in your life

And I hope tequila calls me up tonight sayin

I called to say I missed you

I called to say I love you

I want you back

I want your body lying next to mine

It’s me on the line

-March 2014