lessons learned

When I Leave

My memories were tinted from love

but now I’m realizing you’re just somebody I barely knew

so it doesn’t hurt that much to think about you

I finally figured out life has more to offer me

than you never giving me the time of day

you’ll be crying because you know it’s true

that you’re losing everything

while I’m only losing you

 

When I leave you’ll finally be off my mind

cause when I leave I’m leaving your heart behind

for all the hurt you did to me, it better hurt to miss me when I leave

 

-Jan 2013

PC

The Type of Girl

She’s the type of girl you still think about six months later

after she’s fought for you

after you cancel on her for the fifth time

after you’ve taken her for granted.

when you can’t find anyone else who wants to take care of you

when no one cares to hear about that song you dance to in the car

when you can’t find anyone else to stand up as your advocate as you tear yourself down.

She’s the type of girl you never thought would leave

so you treated her that way and funny enough that’s the reason she left.

And now your sorry ass can’t stop thinking of way to get her back.

 

Hate

Every now and then your name comes up in conversation

Or I hear you that you’ve been talking to somebody new

And I almost care but then I remind myself that I’ve moved on too

But I start to hope that maybe some day you’ll call

And then I hate you cause you don’t

and I hate myself for thinking that you would

 

-april 2014

Should You Give Your Ex A Second Chance?

AKA, Is it a really dumb idea to get back with an ex?

Did you guys give it a fair shot the first time? Or was it more of a relationship that never reached its potential? If you were legit dating for 4-6 months, I’d say that was a solid try and things weren’t meant to be. Your ex is someone of your past for a reason, if it didn’t work out then, it probably won’t work out now.

Did you just break up last month? The feelings of doubt and loneliness are normal, make a date night with your girlfriends and keep on healing. No matter what, its important to let time do its thing and take a solid break.

It might be important to consider why things ended the first time. Did one of you move away, was he just an asshole and you finally got sick of his shit, or maybe you weren’t ready for things to get so serious and bailed.

Unfortunately, things usually aren’t so black and white. There’s usually a few reasons why things didn’t work out, some making you want to try again and others whispering that you’d be a fool to think he changed.

But if you were unhappy in that relationship, don’t let loneliness and a few bad first dates wear you down. Don’t go back and settle because the first couple of months haven’t been easy. Love doesn’t just get handed to you, you gotta fight for it.

Honestly, people rarely change. They can change, they are capable of it. But the majority stay the same. But I think this lesson is meant to be learned the hard way. The heart is emotional and irrational, no logic nor list of his bad habits will save it.

Heck, maybe you should just take him back for one night, flush him out of your system, and then leave his sorry ass in the morning 😛

If he’s matured, if you’re both looking for the same thing, and are on the same page, then maybe the timing will finally be right for you two.