Ghostly Touch

6 days, 6 weeks, 6 months

and I still can’t forget you 

I wish I could forget where your hands touched me

and your breath while you sleep

Your soft whisper and your needy kiss.

-Dec 2020

Conversations We Should be Having but I Wish We Didn’t Have to

I don’t think this is going to work.

Why?

Because you are you

and we are us.

And we don’t work as well together as I had hoped.

Because you can’t decide on what you want

and I deserve someone who is sure about me.

A You and an I

I feel.

You think.

I lean closer.

You pull away.

I want more.

You are stuck in the comfort.

I am shoving

You forward.

There will never be an us because

we won’t work.

It will always be a You and an I.

Big Hearts

Everyone tells me I should walk away

says you’ve got too much going on to handle.

I don’t know why that doesn’t send me running

but I do know I have a heart big enough to hold you inside.

Calling My Name

It’s still dark out and I didn’t sleep too well

So I’m awake and all emotional over you

Angry that I’m feeling so much when you never felt enough

I have to let this severed piece bleed out and finally die.

Because I’ve been cutting it

only to restitch and rebandage the hurt.

So I’ll take my half of the blame

If you finally quit playing this game

Because I don’t know if I’ll survive

another time with you calling out my name.

Wish I Could

You’ve only just gone

but I miss you already.

I told you to Take care and be good

I know I can’t hold you now, but just know I wish I could.

cold

The snow continues to fall, while I’m inside

hurting like Hell because you haven’t called.

I’m wondering if you ever really cared at all.

I can finally stop playing the fool

who thought we would always be together.

I’ve been through enough cold weather

and heart ache.

Between the Lungs

He said “I think you just need fingers

ran through your soul

like you’d be doing to my hair.”

I said, “that’s not fair.

Don’t say something you might not mean

It’s one thing to make me needy between the legs

but even worse to make me needy between the lungs.”

Needed to Know

It was the lack of effort

that told me all I needed to know.

I was in this all alone.

You had given up a long time ago.

Unsaid

You knew exactly what to say to make my heart smile

but it was the words you never said

that made my heart break

Stuck on You

Maybe one day I’ll finally get good at getting over you

But until then I’ll have another drink while I listen to another song that reminds me of you

I’ll drive by your house again and read through old phone conversations

Oh cause one day you wont cross my mind

But until then I’m still at this bar, stuck on you

I imagine hearing your name and not giving it a second thought

There will be no floods of memories that have to be fought

No ache in my heart nor tears in my eyes

You’ll be gone and I’ll have moved on

But until then I’m still at this bar, stuck on you.

Long Nights

Do you remember all those words you whispered into my sheets?

Have you found someone new to keep you warm at night

because I miss listening to the sound of you breathing as we sleep

and I just want your hand to find mine in the darkness one more time.