6 days, 6 weeks, 6 months
and I still can’t forget you
I wish I could forget where your hands touched me
and your breath while you sleep
Your soft whisper and your needy kiss.
-Dec 2020
6 days, 6 weeks, 6 months
and I still can’t forget you
I wish I could forget where your hands touched me
and your breath while you sleep
Your soft whisper and your needy kiss.
-Dec 2020
I don’t think this is going to work.
Why?
Because you are you
and we are us.
And we don’t work as well together as I had hoped.
Because you can’t decide on what you want
and I deserve someone who is sure about me.
I feel.
You think.
I lean closer.
You pull away.
I want more.
You are stuck in the comfort.
I am shoving
You forward.
There will never be an us because
we won’t work.
It will always be a You and an I.
Everyone tells me I should walk away
says you’ve got too much going on to handle.
I don’t know why that doesn’t send me running
but I do know I have a heart big enough to hold you inside.
It’s still dark out and I didn’t sleep too well
So I’m awake and all emotional over you
Angry that I’m feeling so much when you never felt enough
I have to let this severed piece bleed out and finally die.
Because I’ve been cutting it
only to restitch and rebandage the hurt.
So I’ll take my half of the blame
If you finally quit playing this game
Because I don’t know if I’ll survive
another time with you calling out my name.
You’ve only just gone
but I miss you already.
I told you to Take care and be good
I know I can’t hold you now, but just know I wish I could.
The snow continues to fall, while I’m inside
hurting like Hell because you haven’t called.
I’m wondering if you ever really cared at all.
I can finally stop playing the fool
who thought we would always be together.
I’ve been through enough cold weather
and heart ache.
He said “I think you just need fingers
ran through your soul
like you’d be doing to my hair.”
I said, “that’s not fair.
Don’t say something you might not mean
It’s one thing to make me needy between the legs
but even worse to make me needy between the lungs.”
It was the lack of effort
that told me all I needed to know.
I was in this all alone.
You had given up a long time ago.
You knew exactly what to say to make my heart smile
but it was the words you never said
that made my heart break
Maybe one day I’ll finally get good at getting over you
But until then I’ll have another drink while I listen to another song that reminds me of you
I’ll drive by your house again and read through old phone conversations
Oh cause one day you wont cross my mind
But until then I’m still at this bar, stuck on you
I imagine hearing your name and not giving it a second thought
There will be no floods of memories that have to be fought
No ache in my heart nor tears in my eyes
You’ll be gone and I’ll have moved on
But until then I’m still at this bar, stuck on you.
Do you remember all those words you whispered into my sheets?
Have you found someone new to keep you warm at night
because I miss listening to the sound of you breathing as we sleep
and I just want your hand to find mine in the darkness one more time.