I’m always testing the ones who love me
even though the number is few.
Sweet words are so foreign
I don’t trust them to be true.
Like the moon,
showing the world pretty bright lights
and hiding a part of itself never to be seen.
Letting people in is so hard when you know
They are so likely to go
after rubbernecking at the wreckage.
And bruises fade faster if no one keeps pressing into them.
When I was young I dreamed of reaching the moon
and I dreamed of saving the world.
I dreamed of becoming the best me I could be
but chasing dreams is harder than it seems
because disappointment and doubt appear to be the only things in route.
But I’m strong and I’ll survive
and only Love can keep the heart alive.
I’m driving down the road that leads to your house
But I turn left because someone else
Now lays on my side of the bed.
I wish you both the best
but I can’t help myself from
Wishing I could see your face again
And Wishing we could head back to your place
And wishing you found home in my arms.
I miss you all the time
Can never get you off my mind
I’d come back to you in a heartbeat
If you ever opened your arms again.
And he’s calling my phone again
but I can’t tell him that I wish
He was you instead.
Its always worse at night baby
Always hate to be apart baby
Wish you would be mine baby
Wish you would take more
than just my time baby.
And we’re never on the same page
Always pushing while ones pulling
Always at the border of each other’s lives
Refusing to step in or away
It’s pointless torture
And nothing good could come of it.
He holds me tight
and I wonder if he’ll love me past tonight.
I fill my head with nonsense
Wishing we could be
More than just a you and a me.
I’m searching your face
For any clue of what’s going on behind those eyes?
Are you happy or frustrated
Maybe you don’t even know
But oh how I wish she didn’t effect you at all
I like how freely you express yourself.
I wish I could do the same
to show you how good I feel when I’m with you.
Do you kiss every girl like that?
Would you kiss me like this if you didn’t feel anything?
Kiss me absent mindedly again
and we can both pretend not to notice.
I imagine falling apart in your arms
because I trust you to hold the pieces
as I put myself back together again.
I try to keep my distance
because I know loving me would be a bad idea.
Please don’t idolize the way I hold myself.
You want the fantasy of me
and that only leads to reality
breaking your heart.
I’m trying to save you
from the heartache you don’t deserve
Let me save you
before you make me a weak man.
Are you waiting for me
to come back again?
Are you lonely
and dying for my attention?
Let me in and I’ll seduce you again.