Town Signs

Oh I wish I could leave you alone

instead of staring at you through my phone.

I drive through your town

Just to feel close to you again.

I wish there was a sign

To know if you’ll ever be mine

Clouded Fantasies

I wear your t shirt to bed.

Let all the memories of you

Fill my head.

I dream up fantasies of what we could be

We’re probably not even right for each other

but aren’t you dying to try?

Don’t you want to see if we can reach the sky?

Weaker Lover

I wish you were a weaker man

Maybe just for me

But I admire the high moral standards

you hold yourself to

It’s yet another reason I like you.

There’s no winning for me

When you’re not mine

Pretty on the Surface

I love you from afar

because up close I start to see 

too many cracks 

It’s so easy to love things 

that are light and pretty

It’s so hard to stop myself 

from running when it gets 

heavy and dark.

Your Attention

I’m looking for your attention

even though I know she has all yours

Maybe its for the best

and I should Give up the rest

Of everything we could have been.

-Nov 2020

Ghostly Touch

6 days, 6 weeks, 6 months

and I still can’t forget you 

I wish I could forget where your hands touched me

and your breath while you sleep

Your soft whisper and your needy kiss.

-Dec 2020

The Answer is Simple

You drive my mind crazy with questions about us

Do you like me?

Should we date?

What are we doing?

Am I trying too hard?

Should I let that comment slide?

When are you going to see me again?

Is this love?

No.

Between the Lungs

He said “I think you just need fingers

ran through your soul

like you’d be doing to my hair.”

I said, “that’s not fair.

Don’t say something you might not mean

It’s one thing to make me needy between the legs

but even worse to make me needy between the lungs.”

Touching You

I’d hold your hand

trace my finger along the crook of your elbow

to the curve of your shoulder

the hills and valley of your chest

the slope of your neck

to the tussles of your soft, cinnamon hair.

Stuck on You

Maybe one day I’ll finally get good at getting over you

But until then I’ll have another drink while I listen to another song that reminds me of you

I’ll drive by your house again and read through old phone conversations

Oh cause one day you wont cross my mind

But until then I’m still at this bar, stuck on you

I imagine hearing your name and not giving it a second thought

There will be no floods of memories that have to be fought

No ache in my heart nor tears in my eyes

You’ll be gone and I’ll have moved on

But until then I’m still at this bar, stuck on you.

Long Nights

Do you remember all those words you whispered into my sheets?

Have you found someone new to keep you warm at night

because I miss listening to the sound of you breathing as we sleep

and I just want your hand to find mine in the darkness one more time.

Wishing for More

I’m driving down the road that leads to your house

But I turn left because someone else

Now lays on my side of the bed.

I wish you both the best 

but I can’t help myself from

Wishing I could see your face again

And Wishing we could head back to your place 

And wishing you found home in my arms.

-Nov 2020