Sinks In

You’re sleeping and I don’t want to wake you

but I need to tell you that I love you

so I’ll trace the letters on to your skin

and hope it sinks into your heart.

Weak

I never saw you coming

But boy I sure did have fun loving you

Baby you were my best days

Then again you were also my worst.

I’m thinking about you and how you

Probably aren’t thinking of me

Love, why’d you have to turn your back on me

but if anyone asks I’m doing fine without you,

haven’t thought about you in weeks

Cause though I’ve fallen I’ll never look weak

Adore You

I wonder if she enjoys being in your arms as much as I did

Does she know how good she has it?

Does she adore you as well as I did?

I never tasted lips so sweet before

Does she feel the same 

Or are you somehow playing for second place?

She has thousands more nights by your side

Does she know what I would give for just one more?

I hope she treasures you

I hope she doesn’t take for granted

What was so precious to me.

Clouded Fantasies

I wear your t shirt to bed.

Let all the memories of you

Fill my head.

I dream up fantasies of what we could be

We’re probably not even right for each other

but aren’t you dying to try?

Don’t you want to see if we can reach the sky?

Weaker Lover

I wish you were a weaker man

Maybe just for me

But I admire the high moral standards

you hold yourself to

It’s yet another reason I like you.

There’s no winning for me

When you’re not mine

Your Attention

I’m looking for your attention

even though I know she has all yours

Maybe its for the best

and I should Give up the rest

Of everything we could have been.

-Nov 2020

Ghostly Touch

6 days, 6 weeks, 6 months

and I still can’t forget you 

I wish I could forget where your hands touched me

and your breath while you sleep

Your soft whisper and your needy kiss.

-Dec 2020

The Road to You

I’m driving down the road

that would bring me to your house

if I reached the end

But I turn right

like I have the last few months

Wishing I could forget you

and the way to your house.

_Nov 2020 

Happy Memory

Maybe all we’re meant to be 

Is a happy memory

A perfect moment in time

A merry picture to dusk off

when life knocks you to your knees.

It hard to accept it’s all over 

But at least I have 

Your gentle touch

And the smiles you gifted for me

to enchant me in my memories

Friends or More?

Should you date your friend? Or perhaps more accurately, is it worth the risk to date your friend and possibly lose the friendship if it does not work out?

Lots of solid relationships state that an important component is their friendship. Sometimes they start out as friends and some times they don’t, but always they insist that their significant other is their best friend who they tell all their embarrassing stories, hopes, and fears to. So one might think dating a friend would be a great idea because that aspect is already there and has built a strong foundation.

Of course once you cross that threshold from just friends to more than friends, its near impossible to go back. This has got to be the strongest reason people with crushes on their friends give for not pursing it. They don’t want to lose that friendship and closeness. They would rather have them in their life as a friend then risk becoming closer and then ending up with nothing. Sometimes friends don’t want to mess up the group dynamic by dating or sub consequently breaking up.

The thing is if you’ve naturally floated into the territory of daydreaming about one friend in particular then it may be worth digging into. He already knows your interests and dislikes pretty well. You already know about his bad habits and future plans. If you know all this and still can’t stop thinking about him then it may be time to start pushing the friendship boundary and see if he feels the same way about you.

If you don’t try, you’ll always wonder. You may become self conscious or doubt yourself more if you start thinking, well why hasn’t it crossed his mind yet to date me!? Maybe he didn’t think you’d like him back, maybe he has too much on his plate and wouldn’t be able to give you the effort you deserve. All I know is that it’s an unhealthy mental state to be wondering about all the possibilities and insecurities without any sold facts. It will give you a peace of mind to hear his sides of things no matter the outcome.