Debatably Dateable is 4 years old! My oh my, how big she’s grown! I can’t believe this blog is 4 years old today!
If I’m honest, I did not put much effort into my blog this year. I go through waves of inspiration and droughts, and I’ve had an extremely long drought this year. Fall 2019 I was doing great with my queue and I think that honestly held me through. When the summer started I did start to work on new content. But I haven’t really been active on here and the stats really show from July 2019 5,003 to this July (just last month).
I am proud that DD has over 6,000 followers, I appreciate every single one of you for taking the time to read the thoughts and feelings I share. I hope my honesty has helped some of you feel connected to something outside of yourself. I’m also proud to stay that I’ve posted 700 articles/poems over these 4 years and I’ve loved exploring so many topics with all of you!
She’s helped me launch 3 poetry collections now and I’m so thankful to have WordPress as a platform to share my work with all of you!
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I wish we didn’t connect the way we do
It would be so much easier letting you go.
Caring and sweet, we’re good for each other.
But you know I’m not the one for you
and a piece of my heart breaks off in the distance.
The rain gently falls
and I wonder if it helps lull you to sleep.
I remember things you told me
from 3 years ago
But I’m wondering
if you’re still the same person now.
The thunder cracks and I realize
I’m wrong about you again
Today is the day!
Even the Leaves is now available on Amazon!
I’m thrilled to finally have my third collection out and the creative choices I made this time around. Thank you all for continuing on this journey with me; I never pictured myself having 3 publications while I’m this young.
You try not to care and yet I know you do.
I can’t stop myself from caring too.
But all roads still lead to guilty goodbyes.
You’re looking for love everywhere
except right in front of you.
You’ve already made up your mind
and that makes love so hard to find.
So many ideas of what should be
you’re blind to what could be.
I hate myself for coming back to you every time
And I hate you for being the one I fall before.
I hate you for being so difficult
For not appreciating my worth
For leaving me
To fend for myself
in this hopeless dating world.
I hate myself for being your fool again.
You care for me in the way that you can
But you know that your heart won’t go any further.
Your gentle mind feels guilty
for the things it cannot control.
I want to help you through breaking my heart
And in there lies the problem.
Your hearts so soft
I feel like I could break it with one touch.
But it bounces back
as if I was never there at all.
I want to call you baby
I want to wear your shirt to bed.
I want you to hang out with my family.
I want you to take me
to the new restaurant downtown.
I want to cheer you on
at your hockey games.
I want more than I planned.
How many times must I play the fool
for you to finally see that I’m only
Longing for you?
I’ll keep putting myself through this pain
If you make it worth it in the end.
You can cross countries or seas
but it won’t put any distance between
you and the demons
that haunt your mind at night.
Take it from someone who knows.
You need to turn around and
face the demons within.