Town Signs

Oh I wish I could leave you alone

instead of staring at you through my phone.

I drive through your town

Just to feel close to you again.

I wish there was a sign

To know if you’ll ever be mine

Out of Love

I’m sure I could fall

Out of love with you

If you just gave me the chance.

Let me see why you’re no good for me

So I can finally let this fantasy die 

The Road to You

I’m driving down the road

that would bring me to your house

if I reached the end

But I turn right

like I have the last few months

Wishing I could forget you

and the way to your house.

_Nov 2020 

Conversations We Should be Having but I Wish We Didn’t Have to

I don’t think this is going to work.

Why?

Because you are you

and we are us.

And we don’t work as well together as I had hoped.

Because you can’t decide on what you want

and I deserve someone who is sure about me.

The Type of Girl

She’s the type of girl you still think about six months later

after she’s fought for you

after you cancel on her for the fifth time

after you’ve taken her for granted.

when you can’t find anyone else who wants to take care of you

when no one cares to hear about that song you dance to in the car

when you can’t find anyone else to stand up as your advocate as you tear yourself down.

She’s the type of girl you never thought would leave

so you treated her that way and funny enough that’s the reason she left.

And now your sorry ass can’t stop thinking of way to get her back.

A You and an I

I feel.

You think.

I lean closer.

You pull away.

I want more.

You are stuck in the comfort.

I am shoving

You forward.

There will never be an us because

we won’t work.

It will always be a You and an I.

Deaf

You’re scared of good things happening

because they always get ripped from you

and you have a devil in your ear telling you

you don’t deserve it. Remind me to kiss the woman

who brought you into this world with deaf ears.

Scared Love

Even though I understand it, the distance still hurts.

scared of vulnerability, scared of abandonment.

I’m scared too, but either we try or say we never knew.

Love is always risky, that doesn’t mean it won’t pay off.

Give Good

I know you’ll make it through

and it won’t always be this heavy.

You never deserved this pain

but it will make you the strongest man one day.

You have so much good to still give

so come on baby, just live.

Calling My Name

It’s still dark out and I didn’t sleep too well

So I’m awake and all emotional over you

Angry that I’m feeling so much when you never felt enough

I have to let this severed piece bleed out and finally die.

Because I’ve been cutting it

only to restitch and rebandage the hurt.

So I’ll take my half of the blame

If you finally quit playing this game

Because I don’t know if I’ll survive

another time with you calling out my name.

Standing Soldier

There are millions of soldiers who have lost your battle

and still you stand, chest cracked open and bleeding.

You raise your voice for the ones fallen before you

combating the Demons screaming for your surrender.

You silence them with your strength, even with wounds still tender.

Dark Soil

The lack of security in your heart

keeps your mind on guard for the graveyard shift.

You’ve seen an unkind world close up, right in your own kitchen.

But even the most beautiful flowers are planted in dark soil

so please close your eyes and sleep tonight.